HeArtCore iN ReDempTioN

When you first left me I was wanting more
But you were fucking that boy next door, what cha do that for
What cha’ do that for?
When you first left me I didn’t know what to say
I never been on my own that way, just sat by myself all day

I was so lost back then
But with a little help from my friends
I found a light in the tunnel at the end
Now you’re calling me up on the phone
So you can have a little whine and a moan
And it’s only because you’re feeling alone

Whenever you see me you say that you want me back
And I tell you it don’t mean jack, no it don’t mean jack
I couldn’t stop laughing, no I just couldn’t help myself
See you messed up my mental health I was quite unwell.

At first when I see you cry,
yeah it makes me smile, yeah it makes my smile
At worst I feel bad for a while,
but then I just smile I go ahead and smile.

I was blown away.
What could I say?
It all seemed to make sense.
You’ve taken away everything,
And I can’t deal with that.
I try to see the good in life,
But good things in life are hard to find.
I’ll blow it away, blow it away.
Can we make this something good?
Well, I’ll try to do it right this time around.

Let’s start over.
I’ll try to do it right this time around.
It’s not over.
’Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you’re the only one.
It’s not over.

I’ve taken all I can take,
And I cannot wait.
We’re wasting too much time
Being strong and holding on.
Can’t let it bring us down.
My life with you means everything,
So I won’t give up that easily.
I’ll blow it away, blow it away.
Can we make this something good?
‘Cause it’s all misunderstood.
Well, I’ll try to do it right this time around.

We can’t let this get away.
Let it out.
Don’t get caught up in yourself.
Let it out.

I know that you can’t hear
My mind is screaming your name
Your smiles that crushes my chest with the waves of
With the waves my dreams
I curse myself for looking your way
With the waves of
With the waves my dreams
I curse myself for looking your way
I can never tell if our eyes are meeting
My heart is racing, what are we avoiding
I must be dreaming
I can never tell
Lying face to face
Your bright eyes cradles me and I’m
Wishing you’re here when I wake up
Is this too much to ask? Or is this enough
If this is a dream then I don’t want to wake up

i have a lot of things in mind,
i go to sleep, count the blessings to my sins.

i try to forsee a future, dreaming to be happy, contented and in peace.
hoping that one day. this was not just a dream, but a reality.

this is the most unusual relationship i’m in, very different from before. i never thought it would run with such compexity. is this really part of all  plans?

life is scenical, but it’s a battle of happiness and sorrow. yet, happiness could somehow be ur sorrow or much more, and sorrow may be the start of happiness and far greater than between.

sometimes, i try to view things differently, they somehow think of me as stupid and crazy, but what if i am right, what if all things were really far different from what you thought it would be, are u then ready?

that’s why i’m really bothered, how come it’s like this, some people have different opinion, i’m confused, coz in one way, no one is wrong.

i drown myself from my thoughts, hoping i won’t feel the same, but, as i open my eyes, nothing change, i could not change the world. not even mine.

what is wrong now then? am i really talking in sense?

if u see this and find the meaning, drop me a line.. let me see if u have the same concept as my mind keeps me…

~wedz~

nothing lasts forever.. and dats a
fact…

for the question what happened to my
FOREVER? it just had an ending, it was
never really meant to be forever, for
it was lasting.

i’ve had my ups and downs..i even
chose my mistake than my family, frens
and most of all, my self.. i thought,
in finding happiness for myself, she
was the one…but then i was wrong..
very wrong.

what happened?

hmmmp.. it just came to a point that
my biggest mistake was thinking she’d
never let go when she would and she
can..i forgot all deciet.. i was
wrong, oh so wrong.

how did i reacted?

i almost died…i was in a hospital of
death breaking sorrow, physically,
mentally, and emotionally…

how did i stood up?

well, it was a long process, a very
long one indeed. i need to fix
everything up… i thank Allah, last
to my family and friends on my
recovery.

where is she now?

i hope she’s happy…

do u still love her?

i love my girlfriend ryt now.. she
placed me in a place of comfort and
safety. i find security in her when
all had gone in vain. she thought me a
lot.

how much do i love my gf?

i love her in the sake of Allah…
what i mean is, i find her suitable,
as a partner for me, here and the
hereafter. yes of korz i was first
attracted to her beauty, but then
again, i never thought her beauty was
backed up by her brains. she knows
islam far from where i stand, she’d be
taking college na rin.. i could not
ask for more but her presence today
and forever.

what if history repeats itself?how
sure am i?

well, i’m not sure.. but if history
does repeat itself, then it was never
meant to be… i stand in patience,
sabar, for as in the qur’an…
INNALLAH MAASABIRIN…

am i happy?

very happy…

alhamdulillah!!!

Mula nang makilala ka
Di na makapaniwala
Na kahit pa magka-iba
Tayo’y sadyang naging isa
Sa Langit ay ba’t kumalas
Nahulog ba mula ‘taas
Pak-pak mo ay pakibaklas
Nang magkasama ka ng mas madalas

Anghel sa lupa mananatili ka
Hindi na hahayaang lumipad at iwan ako
Anghel sa lupa nahuhumaling na
Langit nadarama pag kapiling kita

Sana’y di na lumisan pa
Di ko yata makakaya
Ang di ko na makita pa
Pagtitig mo sa ‘king mata
Naliligaw ba ng landas
Nariyan ka pa ba bukas
Pakpak mo ay pakibaklas
Nang makasama ka ng mas madalas

Dapat ba sa isang mortal
Ang sa iyo ay magmahal

Nais kong ialay ang buong buhay ko sa’yo

VERSUS

I’m so tired of being left behind
Eating dust, pushed and shoved
Beaten up and blinded
I’m praying for the day when it ends.
So goodbye to the sun for now
‘till I come back again
when I do, you’re the fool
I’ll be pushing you…

Standing on the back line
But now I’m way ahead (couldn’t believe it)

I’m so tired of being left alone
Looked down, written off
Got to learn to fight it
I’ll be laughing last when this all ends.
So goodbye to the sun for now
‘till I come back again
when I do, you’re the fool
I’ll be pushing you…

Standing on the back line
But now I’m way ahead (couldn’t believe it)
Was crawling for a long time
Now I’m way ahead (couldn’t believe it)

I’m ready to take everything right back
It’s a brand new day
The fire in my heart, it burns…

guilty, i did post a lot of things before…

but if ever i did, i also made a public appology courtesy of friendster bulletin…

and now,

i see…

pictures of me in a blog????

what’s that? adding insult to injury?

my life has been an open book for every one to read, but that doesn’t mean any body could mess with it…

hey girl, wake up!!! it’s been 7 long months!!! everything has been said and done!!! gosh ur so.. are u authestic or something???or maybe u’ve done insane…? alm ko noon, nung kilala pa kita, eh, kulang ka sa pansin…but i didn’t know U LACK THIS MUCH OF ATTENTION!!!

i have one advice for u, and take this seriously okey?

kung gusto mo ng pansin, tawagan mo nlng ung gusto mong pansinin ka, kuhita, sitsiti, o unsa ba basta direct to the person, ingna gusto ka mapansin…luoya pud nimo oi..

and i really thought i was the one who can’t move on, as i begged for 5 months for u to love me agen, including the 1 month of improper food intake and 2 weeks of tears…until an angel fell from the sky…

buanga oi, makatawa ko nga masuya…i laugh coz i know in ur hart ur in distress and u feel lonely, that u wish things wouldn’t have gone that far…whereas i thank Allah for giving it all to me as i repent…

so u really have to compare???gosh, how could u compare???

DON’T EXPECT THEM TO DO BETTER ON WHAT I DO BEST!!!

don’t dream on that baby, you’ll end up waking up from a nightmare… trust me on that…

and speak the truth always… ur not just ruining ur name with you….

remember, u are ur father’s daughter, ur carrying a family name which many as well has…so don’t be as much disappointment as u r now… kawawa naman cla…

i congratulate u in one thing…

congrats… u got my attention… coz u have to post my pic in a s2pid blog…

u may ask, i didn’t i send it as a message? simple, y should i do dat, when in fact u did it publicly… an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth…

but u know…

u do know who has the last card on hand…

and hu gets the last laugh in the end…

THREE SIMPLE WORDS

Open up my eyes,
Flooded with daylight.
Another sleepless night turns color black and white.

With all the things I’ve said,
There is just regret.
Repeating in my head.

Hands into a fist,
Static in my head.
Now I’m sitting face to face with loneliness.

What did I expect?
Did I see forever
in you?

I never wanted it to hurt
more than it should.
I hope you’re satisfied,
I never could.

Time to close my eyes
Forget about this mess.
Tried to fix this tragic loss of innocence.

But how can I forget,
The things I have inside
When everything is dead?

I never wanted it to hurt
more than it should.
I hope you’re satisfied,
I never could.

Can’t you see that you left me
here on my own.
Give me one good reason why I should let go

With my hands around your neck
who will stop me now?
With my hands around your neck
who will stop me now?
with my hands around your neck
who will stop me now?
with my hands around your neck
WHO WILL STOP ME NOW!? (WHO WILL STOP ME NOW!?)

I never wanted it to hurt
more than it should.
I hope you’re satisfied,
I never could.

Can’t you see that you left me
here on my own.
Give me one good reason why I should let go now….

Well I’m blowing smoke out of your
window
And you’re slipping back into your
dress
You know you were always such a lady
I’ve always been impressed

But gentlemen
They don’t ask questions
Just keep quiet
She’ll pay attention
Gentlemen don’t ask questions
We could pay attention

I said, "I’m gonna have myself in
shambles
Before your folks are up and looking
for some answers."
Said, "I’m gonna have myself in
shambles
Before your folks are up and looking
for some answers."

Well I pictured you in blue
But I have to say I’m more partial to
the red
Deep, dark, and devastating
Leaving no question as to where you’ve
been

I calm the crowd by keeping quiet
Move like a shadow up to your matress
Gentlemen don’t ask questions
We could pay attention

Do you think he’d be better (’Cause
we’re down for competition)
Doing what I do best?
Do you think he’d be better (This
could all be on purpose)
Doing what I do best?

I said, "I’m gonna have myself in
shambles
Before your folks are up and looking
for some answers."
Said, "I’m gonna have myself in
shambles
Before your folks are up and looking
for some answers."

Do you think he’d be better
Doing what I do best?
Do you think he’d be better
Doing what I do best?

Do you think he’d be better (’Cause
we’re down for competition)
Doing what I do best?
Do you think he’d be better (This
could all be on purpose)
Doing what I do best?

I said, "I’m gonna have myself in
shambles
Before your folks are up and looking
for some answers."
Said, "I’m gonna have myself in
shambles
Before your folks are up and looking
for some answers."

Said, "I’m gonna have myself in
shambles
Before your folks are up and looking
for some answers."
Said, "I’m gonna have myself in
shambles
Before your folks are up and looking
for some answers."